in fukushima the nuclear reactors have caused quite a few scares, in taiwan there was a 5.0 earthquake and in essence, the world does feel like it has reached its time.
in my small scope of the last week, my colleagues tell me i should take it easier on myself, that i’m only human etc, but i’m just mad because i know that i am better than all this, that i know i could have done better, and i don’t want to just ‘oh fuck it’ only to have someone make me feel even worse when they say ‘oh btw here’s something ELSE you did shit for’.
i mean be it natural disasters or work people are really quick to identify a point of blame and make hoo-has about it, so it’s just not funny at all when you are that focal point. there was probably nothing better to say than ‘don’t take it to hard on yourself’ because the fault line has been shifted, as though i was this bright-eyed girl who just really wanted to prove my worth and spectacularly failed, and that’s a good enough cover that really no one bothered to help anyone out, that there is no such thing as teamwork where i am.
