considering what has happened thus far at home, i really should be studying harder to ensure my studies aren’t in the way if i have to fly back to singapore immediately. i really don’t know what i’ll do if i lose my grandma, just like that.

i don’t really like this picture of myself but everyone else looks good here. this is a photo from last year’s chinese new year. i realised that we didnt take any photos at all this year.

i was very much upset when i first found out my grandma has cancer, and she has to remove most of her stomach. i genuinely felt pessimistic about how that may turn out, but the specialist thinks she’s strong enough to handle it. i’ll like to believe that. i pray she’ll never have to feel like she has no one, but me being all the way in australia doesn’t help things. i break her heart so that i can go ‘pursue my dreams’.

anyhow a lot of other things have happened this past fortnight. there was carl’s housewarming, kenny’s surprise birthday, jack’s 21st, and just last night, soong’s 21st. somehow i believe that there is always a balance. for every drop of happiness there must always be, at least, a drop of misery.

i better get to work now. think higher.