to be continued.

i can’t imagine the pain of losing a loved one, especially when you’re so far away from home. although i have gone through it in different circumstances, i can’t and don’t want to see it happening again, knowing that i may not even be able to be there and tell them how much i love them. and yet we simply cannot stop time from aging and taking it all away.

my black and whites are finally out, do see it on my facebook! here’s my favourite Duke, grumpy and grouchy and all and such a prince:

the way things are.

i remember this line was from the movie Babe. i can’t remember how many times i’ve used it or how staunchly i’ve believed in what it means. sometimes situations are simply unchanging and no amount of effort will turn things your way.

it’s been almost 2 months in melbourne now, and my housemates just booked tickets back to singapore in june. i am going to stay here and clean the house for 10 days.

it seems quite exhilarating that this life here will be over in months, in a way that before we know it, it’s all over. everything now is counted in months. carl and i have been together for almost 5 now (i’m reminiscing my puppy love period when i count my relationships in days), i have got 8 more months left in melbourne, and about 2 months before this semester ends.

time is most exemplary of the way things are. you can’t push it and you can’t create more. perhaps we can cheat for a few hours if we manually adjust the hand but that’s about it. and that is just fucked up. it makes us more afraid of what we can lose, simply because we can’t fight the regiments of regularity- if it’s gone, it’s gone. which is why i hope our time together will mean something more than just time.

pics of us at carl’s in echuca:

his house

with the fattest and grumpiest cat i’ve ever met. more of him when my black and whites get developed.