i will leave home.

right now i am in such a deranged state with my mother that i am unsure how life carries on from tonight. i think i will put off packing for australia and start searching for alternative accommodation in the event of leaving home for good.

i have decided that i will take with me all the things that i bought with money i earned on my own. there won’t be much but it is okay. money can be earned again. i cannot deal with her expectations and the gradual realisation that i am really the last remnant she has of my dead father- probably something she has to get rid of.

i am a mac noob.

so i was pretty excited when my macbook came and when i turned it on and it’s obviously functioning already but i went and installed the OS X again anyway.

they keyboard is so white it’s gleaming. omg.

very pretty thoughts

finally in a very long time i get to rot at home in bed, with a thousand things to do but having the privilege to not care about it. and i feel sick in the stomach even though all i’ve wanted to do, in a very long time, is to slouch and curl like an earthworm like what i am doing now.

i would rather just care for myself but aging a year brings you beyond you. i’m more worried about him than i am about myself and it’s consuming me. i’m afraid, i’m so afraid. why can’t you be like everyone else? at least let me see your big toe on the ground.

for sale.

as my school friends will know i’ve had these for a couple of years but i barely look fantastic in them. which is why i’m selling these! if anybody local is interested please do let me know and we’ll negotiate a price. (:

Adidas Missy Elliot Army Print Jacket

Pimp Meister Jacket, lined with satin

both jackets are for females, sized between S and M. of course if you’re a guy but you can fit in them i don’t mind! much love.

JB beyond city square

i’ve had the fortune of visiting tien chen’s place in johor over the last weekend, and i just wish i hadn’t fell sick there. loved the reckless driving and the many protons zooming along ill-defined roads, almost reversing into motorcycles and everything i’ve never seen before.

 

pit stop at vivo pizza

one of JB’s many back end places

2nd uncle’s otak otak stall. this is tc’s cousin

biggest packet of chicken rice i’ve ever eaten

tien chen caught this moment

2nd uncle and the ubiquitous proton wira

hung out to dry

wei jian’s school bus, after he got off

everybody has it bad sometimes, but we’re the most lucky

outside the house

outside the kitchen back door

jusco’s car park

feeling very much like a PA

on friday, i left shooting gallery for the last time officially. i almost got up to go to work today.