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it is plain obvious that there are many kinds of us, some who are smarter, those who are more street-savvy, and others who have simply found their specific passions and achieved much-deserved success.
i must admit that i’m not any of them! but congrats to all of us who jolly well made it through. hurhur/
it’s not even the last day or the last hour, but tears can overwhelm you at the most unexpected moments in the most ordinary day. perhaps similar to how we all make last ditch efforts to preserve any scrap of familiarity and the inexplicable emotion that comes with love or phenethylamine.
however there is always hope that the last hug will be a first the next day, the final push will be the key to your most beautiful amazon behind the thick rusty door that nobody would ever imagine to possess, deep inside, the awe-inspiring strength to open and let a new stream of light peek through our dreams, bringing them to life. impossible may really be nothing, my love.
dear God, i am so afraid.
i really would rather not leave with so many things hanging out to dry, still in the wash or simply decomposing in the laundry basket. everything that i thought would work out did not, and so did everything that was supposed to.
how am i going to support myself without my crutches?
he fell asleep on my bed, slowly breathing next to me, familiar as ever and it makes me want to hold him and disappear like particles, going wherever we want but just staying away from the reality vacuum.
i am really slow and work has been taking up quite a bit of my time. my medical check-up is only on friday, which means i will may just barely make it for my visa approval. driving progress is worrying as well. need to buy more winter clothes and perhaps an eskimo jacket. i think i’ll have to cut short my internship.
it’s really not that bad. i am only leaving my home, my lover and everything that i have held in my grasp, with certainty.
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don’t focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
got this off grace’s blog. HMMS quite eerie the quiz.
i am now awaiting my enrolment letter from monash. having paid my school fees and gone through two weeks of ‘postpone? don’t postpone?’, i am leaving.
tony and drew, if you want me to help you guys get your driving licenses you better hope i pass mine on 27th june.
i believe my procrastination has led to a series of close calls in prepping for the future.
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youth is timeless. it is a vacuum that exists between the ironies of adolescence and adulthood, that even with its unpredictability it is, after all, just a black space synonymous with the undeniable fact that everyone of us goes through the same issues.
i am special because i believe so, but i am not special. i do not deserve what i do not work for. and so comes today’s sermon, that God only anoints you with the strength to fight for yourself, nothing more and nothing less.
i can’t take this anymore. i feel like a little rubber duck drifting on the atlantic ocean. i follow the rushes of waves and slide along the calm; i am bowled over by storms and there my fate lies uncertain. it is a huge pool of hopefulness out there but i really don’t want to be floating on it forever.
if it is something i can work for, please dear Mister God, tell me by all means. if it is a 50/50, i don’t want to hear about it. i’m tired of bobbing up and down and it’s giving me a headache on top of my period cramps.
when i leave shooting gallery, i’ll be really sad. i’ve been learning so many things, like how to operate a coffee machine. i mean, i haven’t seen one on my kitchen table since i was 9. and i have never touched one (that is not a display set). i have been mopping, typing, packing, amongst many other things, BUT
i finally have an inkling of what it takes to photograph a car.
so yeap coffee was embarrassing. but i wasn’t been sarcastic about tearing and all. even though i will have to leave for australia in less than 2 months, full-time, no full-time, $401 a month,
i hope to make him regret not keeping me there. while living up to being miss dazee (daisy).
and, much thanks to all of you who showed me your care and concern about my break-up. and yes we have gotten back together, though for what i have to admit, i have lost track. can love and familiarity be the same thing?
